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2010-10-09T23:33:00.002+08:00

Sorry for neglecting this space! I'm Tumblr-ing most of the time. So check my Tumblr out if you haven't ;) *points to previous entry below*

I'm still thinking whether I should close this blog. Sivien told me not to, cos someday I might regret it and want to start blogging again. Helpppp, I can't decide. Idk why, but Blogger makes me feel obliged to blog long entries, and it stresses me out most of the time! Tumblr makes me feel more relaxed... it's like I can blog short entries and people won't judge me. So I'm considering...

Sigh I'm so stressed out :(

TUMBLR.

2010-10-06T02:52:00.002+08:00

http://atypicaltruth.tumblr.com

why?

2010-10-05T02:08:00.003+08:00

Sigh. I have notified nearly 300 people in Facebook regarding the adoption of Tammy. Zero replies... But thank you Josephine and Huiwen for helping me ask around. And now Facebook is fucking up and I can't continue sending messages... I figured that sending people a personal message through Facebook is better than posting up on forums (which I did alr). Sigh after all Tammy is like what, 7 years old? Who would wanna adopt an old cat when there are so many newborn kittens out there?

I really pray for a miracle... I will be guilty and sinned for life if no one wants to adopt Tammy...

Tammy.

2010-10-03T01:39:00.004+08:00

My cat, Tammy, is up for adoption. Any kind souls out there? I really wanna find a good home for her. I don't want to give her up, but I have no choice but to because my Mum is starting to get allergic to her fur.

I'm really gonna miss the times that I can play with her and watch her acting all funny and cute and fighting with me and doing the silliest things... I can't imagine what it would be like without her.

Some kind soul out there please help. If I can't find a new owner by the time I shift to my new house some where in mid to late October, I have to bring Tammy to SPCA. And you all know what that means right...? I really don't want to be a murderer of my cat's life. I brought her back into my house when she was a young little kitten years back and I don't want to have to end her life. I don't want that to happen.

Please contact me at +6596272866 or germaine_ang@hotmail.com if you are interested in adopting Tammy or you have enquiries or need more details. Thank you so much.

list.

2010-09-30T02:44:00.002+08:00

BBQ with SDZ moderners today was brilliant. Food was good, company was good, playing at the playground like little kids was the best. Downside was that I fell from the bicycle while trying to act smart and answer the phone... which resulted in scratches on my right knee and foot, a bruise on my left foot (my left foot was stuck in between the front wheel of the bicycle and the metal frame *ouch*) and my iphone suffered scratches on the edges. Sigh.
I realise that I really need to prioritise my time. I feel like a wasted kid.
I think I should really start re-organising my life and start achieving things and doing the right things during my holidays.
I painted my nails red.
At times I wish I could be someone else, until someone said that I was special in my own ways (indirectly). Thanks! You know who you are right ;)
Need to start on my choreo. PRONTO. And my FYP too!
Hate it that I'm fucking lazy. Holidays always make me look like a huge and gigantic sloth...
And I'm getting fat. Been eating WAYYYYYYYYYY too much. Time to lose those extra pounds but I'm pretty sure I won't get down to doing it...

2010-09-27T21:47:00.002+08:00

"Busy" sums up my holidays. FYP, Waves 15, scuba diving, shifting of house, choosing of furniture, packing up of my stuffs.... kinda drives me crazy.

Sigh FYP is quite a goner...

faulty camera in our minds

2010-09-22T00:49:00.002+08:00

I'm having way too much fun for my own good. I'm already starting to suffer from the consequences of procrastinating too much. More often than not, we take time for granted and we keep complaining that time is too short.

Carpe Diem.
How many people actually manage to do so? I need to keep myself together and get down to serious business because I'm starting to get sick of my lousy ways and not being able to seize the day.

:)

2010-09-21T02:58:00.003+08:00

Sometimes in life, we all need to take a leap of faith in order to achieve greater things.
And happiness too.

I had tons of awesome fun with my SDZ girls! It's been such a long time since I had crazy fun like that, running around like excited little girls in a theme park... Gave me the chance to be a little girl all over again :) More pictures on my Facebook account. My favourite ride is still The Revenge of The Mummy, but my favourite photo of the day is this (click to enlarge):

Totally drenched from the Jurassic Park water ride! Love these girls so very much ♥

pointless

2010-09-19T03:05:00.003+08:00

I should be sleeping at this hour. I'm so very tired. But I need to get it off my chest. Yes, I do accept the fact that people change. But it just never fails to amaze me how and why people change. In a snap that is. Pretty scary at times huh? One moment you thought that you are really close and the next moment, strangers. Perhaps that's how reality works? Or maybe because we actually have the desire to change but we don't let it show? A desire to change in character? Your values and morality? Truth be told I'm kinda confused and a upset when things change.

People always break promises. Lies after lies after lies.

randommmm

2010-09-10T03:22:00.001+08:00

LEE MIN HO IS THE HOTTEST MAN ON EARTH! TOO HOT TO HANDLE SRSLY.

Been watching Personal Taste on Youtube. Awesome show! Gonna finish up that drama soon! :D

And I'm going Hong Kong next Tuesday. Crazy stoked!!!! :D

wtf

2010-08-31T22:13:00.003+08:00

i'm so fucking frustrated with myself now.

hate it that im procrastinating. hate it that nothing is going into my brain.

and i totally hate it that i'm feeling so tired and nothing is going in and all i think of is sleep. i'm so frustrated that tears are streaming down. fucking hate myself.

Meow.

2010-08-29T03:43:00.001+08:00

Feels nice to have Tammy sleep beside me on my bed every night. She leaps right up next to my leg and just lay there, purring away and falling asleep with me. Such is bliss.

2010-08-23T03:02:00.001+08:00

Truth: I'm a pretty bad people-person... :/ I apologize for any misunderstandings in my actions that seem rude ._.

2010-08-20T04:07:00.001+08:00

I wish I was a better dancer....

detest.

2010-08-12T23:48:00.002+08:00

I detest smokers. Hate them. Totally disgusted.

Because of that, I had a quarrel with my parents today.

I seriously don't get what's the fun of smoking. Or rather the benefits of smoking? ZERO. I think it's bullshit that people say you'll get addicted after the first puff. I've friends who said it felt like nothing and they coughed quite a lot instead. So why the fuck are people jeopardizing their health and their lives? Oh no, let's not put it that way. I don't give a fuck about smokers who wanna kill themselves with every puff they take. Let's just put it that they are fucking inconsiderate and nonchalant about harming the health of innocent non-smokers. I've once read an article that a non-smoker died of lung cancer due to second hand smoke (he hangs out with friends that smokes). Smokers may argue that they move to one side to smoke where possible but I say just stop smoking entirely already! You pay to get killed? Do you smokers even realise how many people die because of unfortunate accidents and there you are, throwing away BOTH your life and your money. You smokers think that smoking is cool. Sorry, not me.

I totally support what Xiaxue said about smoking. Do read if you haven't.

Distress, distress!

2010-08-08T14:51:00.001+08:00

I made a tutorial on how to distress and fray your jeans. Enjoy yeah!
(blahhh i know i look ugly luh T^T)

Vlog yes no?

2010-08-07T18:57:00.001+08:00

Hello all! I've been wondering if I should do a vlog instead, since I've got an iPhone 4 that comes with a HD video function. Makes it easier for me to update everyone about my life. Still considering though, lest people laugh at me. XD

Anyhoos, life's alright so far... But it's gonna get worse in 2 weeks time due to the upcoming exams. Pray that everything goes well!

I'm off for National Day dinner. Toodles! :)

2010-07-31T12:17:00.002+08:00

Inception was good. It was a crazy show! Indeed it is true that anything can happen in your dream... Anyways, I think that Tom (Leonardo Dicaprio) is in reality at the end. The totem seemed like it was gonna topple before the blacked out the scene. Hahah tricky!

Soooooo, I've signed up for scuba diving lessons and I already passed my theory exam! Next will be my practical lessons at the pool and a final open water test at perhaps Tioman? :D Oh oh, and I will be getting the iphone4. My current one is dying on me alr. I'm just waiting for darn M1 to send me a notification mail on when I can purchase the phone. I should have booked long ago ): Lucky Sivien got her iphone alr!

Exams in 4 weeks time. I have so much projects to settle. FYP's giving me a headache too. Haven't been able to attend modern sessions because of these commitments. The life of a year 3 student :(

Oh yes, I wanna join lyrical jazz/contemporary open classes. Anyone wanna join me? :D

2010-07-26T02:35:00.001+08:00

I swore to myself that I'll never feel this way again. Especially not after being treated like trash before. But right now, i can't deny that my heart is aching. So damn bad. I really hate this sore, sour and miserable feeling... I wasn't suppose to feel this way...

2010-07-26T01:34:00.001+08:00

sigh, another 4 more weeks to exam.

i'm a penniless person now, and i feel like puking. :/

spells a-w-e-s-o-m-e n-i-n-e-t-e-e-n

2010-07-18T01:54:00.004+08:00

I had an awesome 19th birthday because I've got my awesome and beloved friends around me! :) Thank you guys for the surprises, the gifts and the cake! Even just your presence is enough! ♥♥♥

Had 3 separate celebrations. The first celebration was with my baby boy! Things didn't turn out as smoothly as we thought to be... but many thanks for the Guess watch that I've been eyeing for the longest time, watching Despicable Me with well, me, and for bringing me to the Singapore Flyer for the first time and even catching the fireworks! :) ♥ you many manyyyyy~

The second celebration was with my family + baby boyfie + Shu Jun at Trader's Hotel International Buffet (it was a one-for-one promo). THE FOOD WAS HELL AWESOME. The oysters, mussels and sashimi was the main highlight. Good lord, the oysters were the. best. And the korean bulbogi wrapped in lettuce... sigh this is making me hungry. Oh and, my parents gave me an Esprit watch :D hehehehe happygurl_91

The third celebration was on my actual birthday itself. Had steamboat at Bugis and I'm so grateful that so many of you came down for the celebration... I can't tell you guys how much fun I had chatting and catching up with all of you. And the Swensen's cake was really good! Thank you Sivien, Angel and Julien for coming down despite that you all didn't join us in for steamboat, my babyboy, Shu Jun, Brandon, Leon, Jeremias and Clement for coming down even though school ended at 1pm, and last but not least, my girls Sherlyn, Huiwen and Jiayi for coming down despite your hectic schedules and my sister even though your work ended late and had to rush down to join in for the meal.... I LOVE ALL OF YOU SO MUCH! So, I'm gonna dedicate hearts to all of you: ♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥
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:D

2010-07-10T01:03:00.002+08:00

Did I mention that I permed my hair? :D Hahaha. It's been a week already... the curls are starting to loosen a bit. Sigh. I really can't decide if I should go back to the salon to ask them to help me re-perm it without charging me. After all I did pay $150 for this...

Life's been rather hectic still. Projects after projects... Idk why but I'm losing a lot of motivation to do my work. Everyday is the same - I come home late, watch my 1 hr hk drama, relax for 1 or 2 hrs, and there goes my time to study or do my projects. I need to start coming home early. Everytime I reach home late, it just means that I will sleep later. I've been having 4 hrs of sleep for 3 days consecutively, and I'm always falling asleep in class. This is irritating me seriously.

Gosh. 15 july is coming soon. Can't believe it. My parents bought me a Esprit watch for my birthday present. Not exactly my style, but I really need a watch right now. And baby got me a Guess watch too. lol! Watches ftw man! I totally can't live without a watch! So big thanks to baby and my parents :D Heh alright, off to go do marketing project now.

2010-07-04T01:50:00.002+08:00

full of uncertainties and insecurities. i really hate feeling this way... even though i hope that everything will turn out okay, but only time will tell.

this feeling is just killing me and eating me up. why can't time pass faster or better yet just let me have a sneak peak into the future....

L, is for the way you look at me.

2010-06-26T22:59:00.002+08:00

; this is what bliss feels like.

I'm in my last week of holidays. I can't imagine what school's gonna be like on Monday. 6 weeks of school and exams again... and I can't believe I'm turning 19 soon. Sigh time flies, but it's alright as long as I have all my loved ones with me :) I foresee that it's gonna be rather busy for the next few weeks with FYP (speaking of which, we didn't even touch on any part of it during the 2 week break -.-), assignments and probably dance? I'm gonna choreograph for Waves 15 together with Melissa Lum! We'll be awesome lor, woman. Hahahahah I know you'll see this :DDD

I miss all my friends and I want my holidays to be longer :(

2010-06-25T01:35:00.000+08:00

can i say that that was a mistake?

not just yet...

2010-06-20T23:46:00.002+08:00

1 more week to go before my holidays end. It's only been a week but it feels that I'm on a holiday for pretty long... idk why too. Probably been very busy everyday. My Monday, Tuesday and Wednesday are for dance, with the rest of the days with either my babyboy or with my friends. I like that I'm able to catch up with all of my friends after so long... but it's been rather draining on me physically and mentally. Oh and on my wallet too. Been spending way too much money and with the GSS on? It isn't helping at all.

I don't wanna look like some hypocrite that just goes round saying "I miss you, let's go out soon" to my beloved friends and yet not doing anything at all. I really hope sometimes people can understand the need for some alone time and resting time? I miss those days that I can just lay in bed all day, sitting in front of the laptop doing nothing, watching tv and shows all day long... anything, just as long as I have some alone time for myself.

Not talking to you doesn't mean that I don't care and that you don't mean anything to me.

sigh i'm not even making any sense here.

2010-06-17T00:50:00.001+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MY DEAREST JIAYI! :D

Hope you'll stay awesome, cheerful, pretty and happy always!!!

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Bliss

2010-06-14T22:34:00.002+08:00

The moment I logged into Facebook, I was greeted with 45 notifications.
Thanks everyone for all the blessings and wishes! :D hehehehe ♥♥♥

2010-06-13T23:24:00.001+08:00

This is just one of the days that I don't feel like talking to anyone. Or doing anything.

2010-06-12T23:27:00.002+08:00

Finally it's holidays :) Exams were over pretty fast... much faster that I've expected. But the holidays only last for 2 weeks... totally lame. I can't accomplish much with the holidays this short! My entire 2 weeks are jam packed with programs... This coming week will be packed with outings. I think I'll be going out almost everyday for the entire week. And the following week? Packed with driving lessons. I haven't been driving for 7 weeks. Gosh, that's like almost 2 months?! I think I kinda forgotten how it feels to half clutch, do directional change and everything else. I wanna try to get my driving license before the end of this year!! Or better yet, before I shift into the new house. Hehehe my mum mentioned about buying me a car!! :DDD

Eh. Wait till I pass first then say. LOL

I wanna accomplish more in my life. I don't know what's with the sudden motivation... alright maybe because I've watched the videos on clicknetwork.tv about the conflict between Aaron (a JC guy) and Andrew (a poly dropout or whatever just a total useless shithead) and the interviewees in a interview conducted by them. Makes me wonder why are some people so uncouth and so.... lame? And we're all of the same age. Don't they have better things to do? I don't wanna be anything like them. I wanna accomplish something constructive, be it a skill I can use in my life, precious experiences and memories. Life's short, so I'm not taking any chances!

I decided to go learn Japanese language when I'm done with my Year 3.
Save some money and travel to other countries.
Take up more outside dance classes (maybe this year. anyone? :D)
Spend more time with my family and friends.
Live my life to the fullest.

Alright enough blabber from me.... GLEE TIME! :D

oh and i need a hair cut pronto!! hair. is. freaking. thick.

2010-06-08T23:25:00.003+08:00

I should be studying. But I'm spamming MSN emoticons with my lapsap boy.

Tzuki emoticons ftw!

Treasure life.

2010-06-07T01:25:00.001+08:00

It's extremely saddening to see this...

Exams in 9 hours' time. Sigh.

two.

2010-06-03T02:19:00.000+08:00

♥♥♥

2010-05-30T11:13:00.001+08:00

Wee hoo! My supervisor is damn awesome! The wait was worthwhile! :DDD

2010-05-29T15:47:00.001+08:00

Gahhhh omg exams in 1 week's time and I've studied no shit yet!!! Die liao die liao. Shall start hardcore mugging today today today!!!!!!!!

Pffy I'm so tired and exhausted... Dance today was pretty fun with the new routine that Jessica taught. My shoulders are aching like ")&'bchskehbsyehe and my blister and my fourth toe. Zzz

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My FYP sucks like fuck srsly. Sent an email to my supervisor on my project proposal (which is due on Monday FYI) and he hasn't reply!!!! Shit man I'm damn fking scared he won't check his email leh...my 10% for fyp will be gone if it's not submitted by Monday. Omg i srsly dwanna die la.. I hope everything goes out fine.. Otherwise I'll be like a sad dog alr :( [quotes Melissa]

Alright I think I shall go bathe now... Can't believe I'm lying all around and over the floor typing this blog entry. Shall. Go. Mug.

Actually,

2010-05-21T01:50:00.001+08:00

I doubt you'll see this... Even if you do, it will be ages later.

The truth is,

I'm so terribly and crazily in love with you.

Whatever I said to you over the phone just now, I didn't mean it. What I was actually feeling was I'm missing you like hell. I would just breakdown then and there over the phone if I were to tell you how much I'm yearning to see you.

I love you.

Not really.

2010-05-18T11:04:00.001+08:00

I hate school. Never used to hate school this much.. The workload and everything is killing me. Time is never enough for me... If only a day was more than 24 hours, I can complete so much more things, get more sleep, catch up with all my favourite people, do the things that makes me happy. The list is neverending. Hate it when it feels like I've been neglecting a lot of things and that I have to sacrifice some things to accomplish something else, when in fact everything is equally impt.

I've decided. Dance is taking up too much of my time... I really love dance, but it's draining me both physically and mentally and I'm losing focus on a lot of other things. I don't think I'll be participating in Waves 15. Maybe just an item or two. I shall take break from dance after the performance on AGM... Otherwise my studies will really suffer.

Sigh. Sacrifices, sacrifices.

infused

2010-05-17T00:57:00.002+08:00

Once again, sorry for the lack of updates! Been really busy this week... and I reckon I will be equally busy (or even more busy) for the next following weeks... Projects have been giving me tons of headaches man. So many deadlines to reach. H8 itttttttt.

I miss the days that I can just idle around at home or go out shopping or relax at Sentosa without having to worry about so many things. Thinking about the stuffs that I have to complete is making me break out in cold sweat and I don't have sufficient sleep all the time. If I'm lucky, I get 6 hours. Otherwise, just 4 hours. My dark eye circles ~~~

So every time you hold me
Hold me like this is the last time
Every time you kiss me
Kiss me like you’ll never see me again
Every time you touch me
Touch me like this is the last time
Promise that you’ll love me
Love me like you’ll never see me again

Everytime I hear this, it just makes me tear.

2010-05-13T21:42:00.001+08:00

Slow down, take it slow.

I really wish I can be more focused and determined. I shall do it. And I know I will succeed.

2010-05-10T23:09:00.003+08:00

I thought I had forgotten how this feels.

But apparently not. Thanks for making me being able to feel this way again. I never felt more alive, real and most importantly, loved.

I love love. And I love you. :)

2010-05-09T21:31:00.002+08:00

So sorry for the lack of updates! It's been a busy week for me. Projects after projects, tutorials after tutorials... it's driving me nuts man srsly. Third week of school only and this much work load. Never been that busy during my first and second year.

FYP is quite screwed up. We've yet to come to an affirmative decision as to what topic we should do and the project proposal date is nearing. Super duper stressed. I'm afraid we can't come up with a good topic that would score us an A. I can't afford to let FYP bring down my results that I've built up since year 1.

And my choreography... sigh. Performance is next week and I haven't finish my choreo?! WTF. omg I'm so afraid I can't finish up!!! Fk this srsly! Inspiration come to me please!!!

zzzzzzzzzz there's so much things to do that I can just explode from the workload. FML max. I need to go do 3 projects now. zzz

it brought us here.

2010-05-03T00:50:00.004+08:00

Weehoo! Sure took me long enough to put my picture up on my profile sidebar on my blog. Really love this photo. Love how the toycamera effect was (Android's FXcamera application is just pure genius) and my red lipstick! Heh current obsession with red lipsticks. Bought one today. Don't be surprised to see me wearing red lipstick on weekends :) Don't ask me why red lipsticks, I just adore how it looks on me recently. I wasn't a fan of lipsticks initially... I even had a mindset that lipsticks are for aunties (like my mum LOL) but I'm so totally wrong on that. Lipsticks are the new lipgloss yo! :D

Popped by at Orchard Central today and there were 2 huge afroheads (that was part of their costume) that approached me, asking me if I was interested in their free makeover - yes, for free. no kidding - and contest in being the Orchard Central girl. So of course I said yes (free makeup who don't want lolol) and they did some makeup and styling of my hair. They also took polaroids of me and I got to keep one :D Hahaha well of course I won't win. I bet there are many more other gorgeous looking girls out there who would win! But anyhoo, they'll notify me if I'm being selected. Which I highly doubt so. HAHAHAH

Here's the polaroid:

Ironman 2 was such a disappointment. Climax was all over the place. I'm pretty sad actually :( I think Ipman 2 would be better. Donnie Yen's martial art skill alr pwns all! Lol, shall go catch that soon! :D I better turn in soon. Dance clinic tmr! @-@

toycamera

2010-05-01T23:40:00.002+08:00

(major picture spam from Motorola Milestone using Android's FXcamera application)

2010-05-01T01:36:00.002+08:00

Oh wow. I feel so tired. This is the first time I'm feeling this tired even though I'm using the computer. I think I'm gonna go crash soon.

Cinnamon Melts + Cheese Burger = (Y) x 986484628 ♥♥♥

this is enough.

2010-04-29T21:04:00.004+08:00

My schedule's really really so damn packed. Seriously giving me panic attacks and headaches and everything. My two most dreaded things are my FYP stuffs and choreographing my Hometown Glory... Even though I work better under pressure for the latter, but just the thought of actually having to complete is just... awful. And stressful! :(

Anyway, 28 April was a great day out. It was a special day. :D Marina Bay Sands wasn't as awesome as I thought... the shops there are mostly high-end labels (think Chanel) and a lot of the facilities and shops there are not open to the public yet. The hotel interior was magnificent, but if you try to loiter or explore around, the hotel staff would give you weird looks and will start asking if you need any help. So boo to the hotel! Tbh, I don't really see the point in making a return trip there cos the facilities are meant for the casino players. I can't even go into the casino for goodness sake -.- But whatever it is, it's the company that matters :3

:D

Alright, I think I'm seriously gonna stop shopping from now on. Maybe I'll just spend another $30 on getting a proper bag for school or something. Need to start saving up for greater purposes! Hopefully I'll be able to stick to this mindset and not start spending again whenever I enter Forever 21 or whatever other shops -.-

Off to do my tutorials now.

redlipsbusyalert

2010-04-26T21:49:00.002+08:00

Life's been rather hectic for me. Endless projects coming up, CCA drives, clinics, auditions, choreography to learn and to come up with and dance camp, driving lessons to attend... I have to do well in everything. Feeling kinda pek chek with my packed schedule and it never fails to give me headaches. Totally hate it when I'm super busy. I don't even have time for friends like I promised to :( sorry sweethearts (you know who you are :D)!

Anyway, I'm so fking broke nao!! I srsly have no idea how I spent away my pay... hahahah oh wells. I need to stop shopping man srsly. That's the number one income killer. Now I'm just waiting for my second round of salary to arrive and my Maritime Academy Prize! Heh shall save this money for greater purposes... like travelling? I really wanna go Bangkok so much, but it seems like the riots there are not gonna end any time soon :/

It's always interesting to see how people change, and how people really are. I've seen that some are really superficial people, some are easily manipulated, some are fucking selfish and fucking pussies as well. Another never fails to surprise me... how much this person can change in the way he think, act and speak. And it only takes one person to change it. In a short span of time.

Life is such.

2010-04-22T21:32:00.001+08:00

ahhhhhh FML i hate my reformatted laptop! didn't do any back up and now i have no photos, no more awesome MSN emoticons, no games, no this, no that, no everything!!!!

omg i'm a loser FML

first and second

2010-04-21T23:38:00.003+08:00

My laptop is up and running again! Thanks. ♥♥♥

My hands, they don't wanna start again

2010-04-21T13:22:00.001+08:00

Dammit, my laptop crashed! Now I can only surf the net by using my itouch. Thank goodness I bought it.

Going to go watch Kick Ass with my classmates ltr :) anyway, lessons in school are boring. Not concentrating in class at all, thanks to someone who keeps distracting me. XD hopefully I will start listening in class next week!

Idk, I think i kinda blog weirdly from my itouch. The contents are usually somewhat different from how I would blog when i'm using my laptop instead...

2010-04-18T22:31:00.002+08:00

holy crap, school starts tmr. i can't imagine what the school would be like tmr with all the freshies... i doubt i can eat lunch in peace cos all the foodcourts would be PACKED. zzz

anyway, it's been such a long time since i went out with my family. had dim sum for brekkie and prata for lunch and off to vivo for shopping. benefits of going out with your parents? they pay for your purchases. HAHA. bought a pullover and a headband from Forever 21, nail polish from The Face Shop and basic tanks from Cotton On. and i need a new bag! alright, more like i WANT a new bag.

alright, i think i shall go pack my bag and all now. i have to update my scheduler and prepare for school tmr! happy schooling to all my friends who are in poly. ;)

i hate how i think too much at times and react too strongly without thinking.

2010-04-17T23:27:00.002+08:00

This may sound rather silly... but I'm afraid that that was directed at me... :/

Sigh.

Hmm.

2010-04-17T19:42:00.001+08:00

Blogging through my itouch cos I'm too lazy and too tired to switch on my laptop. Imma go crash on bed for a nap after blogging. Never felt this tired for so long. Usually I'll just continue to stay up till the wee hours and then only sleep for like a maximum of 6 hours most of the time? It's really kind of pointless to take a nap at 8pm, no? Haha I'm weird like that.

Dance practices have been rather intense for the entire holiday. Most of my days in a week are dance practices. And the genre showcase is just next week! Nervoussssss :/ sigh speaking of which, school's gonna reopen on Monday... Sigh. Sucks to be a year 3 student... Can't imagine all the stress, projects, assignments and crap.

I'm considering whether I should switch over to livejournal. I like it that it enables users to lock certain entries so that anonymous people can't read it. There's so much things that I want to say. I know people are reading. Hmm. It's either this option, or create another blog and blog anonymously.

Sorry, I'm not making much sense with this blog entry. Imma go crash now. Bye

"When I'm feeling sad, I stop being sad and be awesome instead" - Barney Stinson

If only I realised that much more earlier, I wouldn't be what I've become today.

ohemgee

2010-04-11T20:17:00.003+08:00

I'm getting way to gluttonous for my own good. I'm getting fat and I can feel it. My tummy is like getting rounder and rounder? And I seriously don't understand how on earth I can still put food into my mouth when I'm full. Like really bloated state. I seriously need help. I can't seem to curb the craving of eating whatever that's in front of me. Kinda lack the motivation to eat in moderation and go for jogs in the evening like I used to... Any tips to help me gain back my motivation on slimming down and cutting down on my food intake....? :/

As I'm typing this, I very much want to eat that bowl of 杂菜贩 in my fridge.... FYI i just ate a packet of chicken rice, a cup of yoghurt, a plum, and guavas! OMG @-@

This week has been a busy week. Just came back from SMA FO camp earlier this morning and slept all the way from 10 am to 5pm. Gonna be busy for the last week of holiday as well. Mahjong session, driving lessons, remaking of my IC ($100 zzz), work, clubbing, dance, yada yada... I wish holidays were longer :/

Hehe, this is a picture of my extensions! Luvin' the colours so much ;)

:D

2010-04-06T01:24:00.002+08:00

What could be better than to know that you are someone else's inspiration?
This totally made my day. All the bad and unhappy things... they seem to feel so distant now.

Thanks Melissa, you really made my day. ♥

2010-04-05T21:51:00.002+08:00

I'm eating yoghurt now... feeling so full but I'm just stuffing it down. Cos yoghurt is that good. Yummmm. I can't imagine what would happen if I bought a tub of yoghurt that weighs 1 kg instead. HAHA.

-------------------------

I hate how confused and messed up I can be. It happens every single fucking time. It's like one moment I'm so certain things are gonna end up this way, but before I realise it, things aren't actually so bad. At the end of the day, I will end up feeling happy.

The next day I wake up, I start pondering again. It's like a stupid vicious cycle. I just wish that I can finally settle down on a decision. And that insecurity would just go away.

Please please please STOP popping up in my mind. I can't believe this is a cause for worry... I thought I've gotten past that. arghhhhhh whateverrrrrr shall go read postsecret now to make myself feel better kthxbye.

out of sight = out of mind?

2010-04-05T01:57:00.002+08:00

Stop messing with my mind already... it just makes me all confused and insecure.

Funny thing is... you're not even in sight.

>:/

2010-04-02T15:48:00.002+08:00

My handphone's bluetooth system is screwed up. So is my laptop's and iTouch's.

There are so many photos I wanna share... but my handphone is cui :/ I get to upgrade my plan after 10 April! But I have no money to get a better phone :( sighxzxzxz

Anyway, I need to get a casing and screen protector for my iTouch. Pronto. My iTouch feels sooooooo naked! Like the back casing can be scratched any time... and it's full of fingerprints! arghhhh h8 it. I'm like constantly wrapping it in polishing cloth? Lol damn kiasu I know. I wanna get a hard casing! I hope epicentre is not gonna sell it too expensive :/ Oh and another thing. I totally can't stop fiddling with my itouchieee (that's how I name my itouch)! Even if I have nothing to do, I will find something to do on my itouch. And because of that, the battery can't be charged fully cos I'm always touching it. No wonder it's called itouch... LOL.

I need to get my eating habits back on track. I'm being too much of a glutton... I don't get how I can pop food into my mouth even though I'm bloated. I really really don't get why and how. Need to start jogging and need to stop all the junk food habits. And I need to stop the habit of eating ice cream breads... it's really my favourite... but I'll try to cut down. Really try!

Boohoo. Good Friday is boring. And my sunflower withered... I'm sorry :/

Test test

2010-04-02T14:12:00.001+08:00

Hello I'm blogging through my itouch! Just wanna try and see if it works :)

2010-04-01T20:55:00.000+08:00

OH HAI, I'M WAITING FOR MY 16GB ITOUCH TO ARRIVE. LIKE TODAY. LIKE IN ANOTHER 1 HR'S TIME. OMG THIS BETTER NOT BE A JOKE OR ELSE I'M GONNA SUE BOTH APPLE AND DHL.

LOL

happy or sad?

2010-03-31T23:11:00.002+08:00

Hi, I can't exactly figure out whether I should be happy that I already paid for my refurbished iPod Touch 16gb 2nd gen, or should I be sad that I'm fucking broke.

iTouch's arriving either next Monday or Tuesday, but I have only $20 to survive on for the next 1 week.

sigh I wish I was richer.

blueblueblue

2010-03-29T23:37:00.004+08:00

Hello all! See smth blue-y going on around here? hahaha! luvin' my extensions to the core man. Blue ftw! (not forgetting red too) Hehe. I was actually thinking of getting similar extensions on the rest of my head. Idk whether it will be too over the top. Currently, I only have it on my right side. And I removed my braids. Again. :X

Anyways, I've decided that getting an iTouch shall be my first priority. Shopping can wait. Once I get my pay, I shall get my iTouch! And hopefully, I be awarded the Singapore Maritime Academy Prize again this year... cos there's a monetary award for it as well. HOPEFULLY. Sigh there's soooooo many things I wanna buy. I think my pay from alldressedup will be used up man. Seriously. T^T I can't believe that I'm left with $10 in my bank account. Power much? HAHAHAHAHA.

Hehehe I'm so happy! I'll be having 3 D's tomorrow: Dance, Driving and ___. :DDDDDD

The rest of my hair extension photos:

2010-03-28T23:39:00.002+08:00

hello hello i want an itouch. like right nao!!! omg. i can't decide between 8gb and 32 gb.... this is such a tough choice. $308 vs $468. WLAU I'M LIKE FKING BROKE NAO. BUT ANOTHER $160 CAN GET ME 4 TIMES THE STORAGE SPACE.

and, if i'm getting 32 gb.... MIGHT AS WELL I PAY ANOTHER $100 TO GET IPHONE. since my phone now is like some cui loser phone ._.

totally in a dilemna @-@

anywayz, i fking love my hair! hehehehehhe blue is my fav colour nao :D and i love today. 28 March 2010... i like.

I'm a retarded kid.

2010-03-25T00:29:00.003+08:00

I officially hate 24 March 2010. I was late for the scheduled shuttle bus service timing to SSDC and I had to take a cab. I hopped onto the first taxi, and then got down, because the taxi driver didn't know how to go to SSDC despite him being in the Admiralty area. I got onto another taxi (fortunately the taxi driver knew how to go to SSDC), and that's when I realised that I couldn't find my wallet and most probably dropped it in the first taxi. Thank goodness the uncle was such a nice man... giving me a free ride to SSDC. Thank you uncle :)

I had to fucking hell make phone calls to Standard Chartered to cancel my supplementary credit card, POSB to cancel my ATM NETS card and made a trip down to the police station to make a police report on my lost IC and POSB branch and paid $5 for a new ATM card.

And to top it all off? I lost $8 in mahjong. Again. And I accidently spilled a packet of sauce on the dining room carpet.

What a nice way to celebrate my good grades. I didn't receive any reward and I had to pay for the fucking fee to remake my IC and the stupid ATM card. And now I'm officially the most outdated and the most retarded kid in Singapore. A lousy Sony Ericsson phone with a 2 megapixel camera and 512 mb memory, and an old old wallet.

Fuck my life srsly.

2010-03-22T01:21:00.002+08:00

Took me quite awhile to finish re-braiding my hair all over again. Not bad right my skills?! hahahah. I just really really hope it can last for a few days before I have to re-braid it again. The one I did in Phuket only lasted for 5 days. Albeit still visible, but it was kinda messy and loose alr.

I had a nice dinner today :)

>:(

2010-03-20T22:17:00.002+08:00

I hate it when my emotions take control of my logical senses. And that's where I make stupid mistakes and say things that I would regret when those emotions fade. I fking hate it.

All I can say is... let's take it slow and try not to rush into things.

2010-03-18T16:36:00.000+08:00

I'm pretty screwed up.

Come on, be decisive already!

a round of applause

2010-03-18T03:02:00.003+08:00

I've deleted almost everything away. Sigh, why don't I just delete the entire thing right? Not like it bothers anyone.

And yeah.... ___ looks better. Hate to admit this, but yeah, ___ IS better. In everything I suppose? Definitely better than someone having really small eyes, vampire-like teeth, pimples/scars, long hair, not knowing how to maintain their poise, clingy, possessive, whiny, irritating, lame and overly lame, trying too hard to please, retarded and whatever else that is negative. You name it, she got it.

Now I'm almost convinced why ___ ditched ___. ___ should have done it long ago, and told the truth, so that ___ wouldn't feel like ___.

*Fill free to fill in the blanks*

not like you care?

2010-03-18T00:39:00.003+08:00

Hi everyone, I'm back! MEL camp was alright I guess... just wished that we had more time at Phuket and that we had much more fun activities on board. Phuket was a huge disappointment. Wasted a lot of time walking around aimlessly because we disembarked at 10 am but the shops were only opened at noon. Clothes sold were pretty tasteless and were very repetitive around the entire Patpong Beach area. Worse, salespersons were very rude and complacent, taunting and rejecting offers whenever we made a bargain. I only bought a set of bikini and a shirt for myself. The rest of my money went to grocery shopping (i bought 8 packets of maggie mee, like wtf) and souvenirs. Oh, but the only redeeming part of Phuket? I braided my hair! I'm absolutely in luv with it ♥ (although it's really hard to maintain).

tell me they're chio! ♥♥♥

I saw something that made me feel very very uncomfortable and it set me thinking even though I should not feel anything out of it. That set me thinking. Maybe it's better for me to remain this way. So that you would feel guilty whenever you look back? Wait, maybe you don't even look back and won't even feel a prick in your conscience. Anyhow, I don't think I wanna carry on with ____. I guess it's better to remain like this.

Again... I'm better off alone. It's really, really better.

2010-03-14T01:45:00.001+08:00

hey everyone, i'll be away from SG from 14 march to 17 march, cos I'll be on Superstar Virgo for my school MEL camp trip! hehehehe pretty hyped up :D

so.... miss me alright! XD

thumbsdownforyou.

2010-03-12T04:01:00.003+08:00

come on, get the hint already! i was really hoping it's just you and me... you can't expect me -- a girl -- to tell you directly in the face right. tsk, can you like tune to the same frequency as me!

sighhhh this is totally a pek chek moment. :(

(anyway, i was trying to show my lower eyelash in the picture. hehe my first time applying mascara on my lower lash. absolutely mad chio! imma apply mascara to both my upper and lower lash everytime now :D)

rest

2010-03-10T23:52:00.002+08:00

I finally realise why I refuse to sleep early. It's because I'm chatting with you online. And it's alright to always sacrifice my sleep time, just so that I chat with you :)

crash & burn

2010-03-09T18:55:00.003+08:00

I'm so so so broke as of now... I just spent $30 buying 2 pairs of flare shorts at Bugis earlier today. I srsly wonder how I can still go shopping when I'm already broke. Naiiiiise. I shall stop shopping now. Like now now now! >:/

Also, I've never been this tired before in my life... really feel like crashing on bed right now. But I have so much things to do... sleeping is a waste of time :( I have to study for my driving final theory trial test tmr. And and and, I have my Bleach and my 珠光宝气 to watch. How can I rest? Sighz I'm starting to have a slight breakout again. Symptoms of me not having ample sleep.

I really wanna get closer to you. It's weird how I can get this crazy feeling of wanting to get closer to you when I'm alone but when you're right beside me, I just won't do anything much more than friends. I'm trying... but whatever that's restricting me is probably the fear of unrequited love... and the fear of ruining our friendship... Srsly, can't you tell that I'm doing more than what friends should do through my small little actions?

Even as I'm talking to you now, I'm missing you like hell :/

2010-03-08T02:26:00.002+08:00

I've been wondering... what does it matter to you regarding my life? Not like you care about what's happening. You chose not to. So don't act like you care. I'm pretty sure you have better things to care about, especially ____.

It also doesn't matter to me what we are anymore... it was always me caring about us, being very careful and cautious about everything. Thank goodness I snapped out of it, realising that you are totally not worth my time.

Even though my life is not as fanciful as yours, I'm already satisfied with what I have. I just have to accept the fact that life is unfair at times.

speak.

2010-03-07T03:45:00.003+08:00

The reason why I refuse to go to sleep or keep on dragging the conversation?

It's that I'm hoping you would say something else to me instead of the usual goodbye.

i think i love you.

2010-03-05T02:10:00.002+08:00

sigh, this is really, really driving me nuts.
I have never felt so strongly about you before. Never.

But I guess from the way you're reacting, this will lead to nowhere :/

2010-03-04T14:00:00.001+08:00

My sister's party @ Arena ytd was crazy! Omfgggg I srsly threw my face like fk? And I pulled my hemstring because of that.... sigh. And sorry to all the people who took care of me. I owe you one. (no, I'm not dead drunk or anything. Sobered up in the end.)

Sigh I wonder if you could tell what I was trying to express to you.

2010-03-03T15:16:00.001+08:00

RAWRRRRRRR

I. CANNOT. WAIT. TO. START. DANCING. AGAIN.

I MISS MODERN DANCE. AIYA, JUST DANCE LAH.

SATURDAYYYYYY~~~~~~~~

2010-03-02T03:58:00.002+08:00

3.58 am.

I suddenly feel stupid - for not pouring out my feelings back then and ironically, for acting stupidly back then.

3.05 am.

2010-03-02T03:05:00.002+08:00

It's 3.05 am.

I have tons of fragments of thoughts running through my mind, messy and unorganized.
Heart's in a turmoil. The heavy sinking feeling is here to stay.

I have no idea why too.

i can't believe i drove on the road today!

2010-03-01T22:56:00.002+08:00

HI HI HI OMG I'M SO EXCITED AND HAPPY

I CAN'T BELIEVE I DROVE ON THE ROAD TODAY FOR MY SECOND PRACTICAL LESSON HAHAHA I SRSLY CAN'T BELIEVE I DROVE ON THE ROAD SIAAAAAAAA

YAY DRIVING IS SO FUN x 9347147165374525729075894754

wa when i was at the traffic junction, i forgot to change to the 1st gear and the car stalled, then the cars behind me honked me and i kancheonged. wlau srsly kancheonged max. then the instructor told me to ignore them hahahah so funny. naow i srsly can't wait for the next practical lesson. hehe i think i need more practice on changing of gears, accelerating, signalling and turning smoothly on the main road.

I still can't believe i drove on the road today. YAYZ

BLEACH AH!!!

2010-02-28T01:33:00.002+08:00

WLAU, WHY I NEVER START WATCHING BLEACH EARLIER. WLAU. WLAU. WLAU.

WHOLE LIFE WASTED MAX.

BLEACH FTW \m/

(okay, KHR too okay?? I shan't be biased towards Bleach only! *sayang*)

Today.

2010-02-25T22:19:00.004+08:00

Mr. X not only took away my heart for a number of years, broke it, left me upset for very long, made me realize a shitload of things, made me value myself more than ever, but he also passed me an incredible amount of bad luck in love, while he is happily enjoying himself with his better luck.
Mr. Y not only leaves me confused, makes me do silly things, never fails to make me feel shitty all the time with his incessant "compliments", gives me tons of unconstructive comments and suggestions when I try to find some comfort which in the end makes me feel shitty more than ever, gives me false hopes whenever he does something nice and then do the opposite in a split second, but he also leaves me struggling and stuck. In this crap.
After the above evaluation, I think I should give up on all things related to the word "love".
I really really miss dance. And all my dance mates as well. I'm also feeling very excited for the upcoming genre training.
My life now is all about work, dance and driving. Oh, did I mention false hopes as well?
Tomorrow is my first driving practical lesson. Not a tad bit nervous, but I'm pretty sure I'll be freaking out tomorrow on screwing up.
Really want to go shopping... but I'm so horribly broke... :(
I need inspirations.
Feeling kinda upset actually... I fucking hate to see anything related to her name. zzzz
[Edit]: You know what? You are making me more and more pissed off. You are such a jerk because you go round hurting other people's feelings. And you never fail to make people feel shitty. You do that ALL THE TIME.
[Edit]: I might regret what I say... but you can't deny the fact that I am fucking right about what I said.

2010-02-25T02:06:00.000+08:00

OH HAI, EXCITED ME CURRENTLY LOVES

KATEKYO HITMAN REBORN
BLEACH
LYKKE LI
SHOPPING

2010-02-24T23:24:00.002+08:00

I'm so sad now.... my face officially have another hole... :(

2010-02-22T23:03:00.002+08:00

:( Tomorrow is gonna be a very tiring day. Gonna work from 11.30 am to 9 pm. Sighhhh I wonder why are the hours so long :(

And my legs are aching from standing the entire day... and tmr even longer. sighz.

But work was okay I guess. Pretty relaxing in fact... did some tagging of sensors, learning how to wrap clothes for customers and the other basic stuffs. Time didn't past exactly very quickly, but I wasn't bored at all. Hahah so that's good I suppose. I just hope that tomorrow would be equally good as today.

It's quite upsetting that I've finished reading KHR manga... now I have to wait for both the weekly episodes of the anime and chapters of the manga. :( Life sucks naoooo. Omg and I srsly think that KHR is gonna end soon judging from the way the manga is going. The next chapter is entitled "The Final Battle of The Summit". PLEASE TELL ME IN WHAT WAY IS THAT GONNA BE A HINT OF MORE FUTURE CHAPTERS OF KHR? FML max okay. Srsly FML FML FML FML!!!

/wrist maxxxxx.

sian ttm

2010-02-22T02:10:00.001+08:00

what makes me most sian is when i have to stay up to wait for my nails to dry before i can go to bed.

the worst?

seeing her name flood my email inbox. FML max.

forever.

2010-02-22T00:51:00.002+08:00

; This is forever... nothing will change I promise. Love you girls forever and ever! ♥

Happy belated birthday to my Huiwen dearest! :D Hehe hope you loved the shopping, the dinner, the cake and the present! hehehe luv you dipdip ♥

Anyway, I feel damn happy today even though I spent $100 on shopping. Fking love the clothes I purchased. Makes me feel so delighted to have new clothes in my wardrobe. And finally buying something that I really really want and really like. HEHE SHOPPING IS THE BEST THERAPY. FOR ANYTHING.

I'm starting work tomorrow at alldressedup @ orchard ion. Hmm I hope everything goes out well? I'm pretty stoked about it actually... working in a fashion retail store. I'm finally having a job that I really want!

Gonna go wash off my mask and paint my nails and read my KHR manga and then SLEEP. Long longgggggg day tmr.

2010-02-17T16:05:00.002+08:00

My luck was incredibly bad after the clock strikes midnight. Lost all my winnings from mahjong to Blackjack, and I only won once in the second session of mahjong. *facepalm* I think it was probably because I wore dark coloured clothings... and my underwear and all was black as well! Liangwei won most (he was wearing a RED polo tee). Now that explains. Imma go revamp my wardrobe into red-only clothings. HAHAHHA I'M JUST KIDDING. If like that ah, I can have CNY all year round.

I can't decide if I should stay home today to finish up the rest of my projects and TWT essay... cos there will be a steamboat session at my uncle's house. I'm hungry :(

Anyway, this is what I wore on the 2nd day of CNY [I bought this toga dress from Best of Blogshops @ $30 ;)].

Shall go mug for Statistics theory test tmr alr. Bye :D

amore

2010-02-16T02:28:00.002+08:00

I suddenly miss the feeling of falling deeply in love... and knowing that everything will be alright even in the most wretched situations, because he is always there for me, protecting me, comforting me and loving me.

But it's not even anywhere near possible.

poker face

2010-02-16T01:36:00.002+08:00

So far, CNY has been rather good. Money collected from ang pows is not a lot, but it's sufficient. I don't think I'm gonna do much visiting this year, as compared to last year. Only thing different this year is that I'm gonna have mahjong sessions!! Hehehehe. ^-^v

And Percy Jackson and The Lightning Thief is damn nice! I really hope there's a sequel to it?

I don't know why... but I actually feel most satisfied and happy when I listen to emo songs. Ikr, the irony.

2010-02-13T23:12:00.002+08:00

This is my 800th post. Hahah alright not a big deal, but hey, the number 800 is a good sign to kick start CNY okay. hahaha. So, Happy Chinese New Year to all. May you receive the fattest ang pow ever.

And for Valentine's Day?

..... I don't give a shit.

YAY TODAY I'M IN LUVVVV :DDDDDD

2010-02-12T18:40:00.004+08:00

See, I told you I was gonna get it. YAY I'M SUCH A HAPPY GIRL NAO. LIKE NAO. HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHA YAY YAY YAY YAY I LUVVVVVVVV KATEKYO HITMAN REBORN AND I LUV TSUNA AND I LUV THE VONGOLA SKY RINGGGGGGG :DDDDD

The ring is super chio right?! The sky blue colour... it just glistens under the sun :DDD Totally worth the money. YAYZ.

I'm definitely going back to look for more merchandise... perhaps the rest of the rings?

^-^v

fickle.

2010-02-12T01:23:00.003+08:00

Next week, I have to hand in my TWT essay.
Next week, I have to hand in projects and get my E-quiz done.
Next week, I have my CRS presentation.

Today, is my last day of my exam papers.
Today, I'll be having a reunion dinner with my family.
Today, I'll have 3 hours on hand before my lesson starts.

Yesterday, I realised that I have a lot of friends whose name starts with the letter "J".
Yesterday, I went to trim my bangs at FEP.
Yesterday, I bought a dress at Max&More.
Yesterday, I was home typing my notes out in MS Word.
Yesterday, I said something that I actually didn't really mean.
Yesterday, I was unsure of how I felt.

Yesterday, I regretted what I did say.

Yesterday, tomorrow, the next week, the week after next....
I think I'll still regret what I said. But it's too late. Probably this is better for the both of us.

rings rings rings

2010-02-11T18:41:00.003+08:00

HELLO, I KNOW YOU ALL PROBABLY FEEL LIKE SLAPPING ME RIGHT NOW.

I NEED TO GET THESE KHR MERCHANDISE:

I DIE ALSO MUST BUY. ESPECIALLY THE VONGOLA SKY RING.
WHENEVER I IMAGINE THE RING ON MY FINGER. AHHHHHHH~~~~~~

MUST. BUY.

2010-02-10T15:56:00.001+08:00

OH HAI, I JUST FOUND A NEW SOURCE TO ENTERTAIN MYSELF AND FEED MY HUNGER:

REBORN MANGA.

^-^v

zomgggg

2010-02-10T15:23:00.002+08:00

Life has no meaning now....

No more Reborn to watch... me sad.... :(

[Edit: I think I shall make do by re-watching the front episodes :|]

2010-02-09T23:59:00.001+08:00

OMG MY LIFE SUCKS NAO, BECAUSE...

I FINISHED WATCHING MY KATEKYO HITMAN REBORN. AND I NEED TO WAIT FOR NEW EPISODES TO COME OUT EVERY WEEK. AND I'M CONSTANTLY KEPT IN SUSPENSE.

FML

2010-02-07T21:58:00.001+08:00

What if I said that I've already given up before the battle starts?

I'm already prepared to not do well.

Boooo.

2010-02-07T15:28:00.002+08:00

Tomorrow is my exam. And it marks the end of Year 2. Shall go mug nowwwww.

And this:

Pineapple tarts are seriously the best Chinese New Year tidbit 4lyfe.

Pas du tout?

2010-02-07T03:55:00.002+08:00

It must be the doing of revising my school work for near 10 hours because these random thoughts just popped up in my mind:

Girls, if you ever think that "if you really love him, let him go" is the right thing to do and that it's only right to believe him when he says he needs more time or that he needs some cool down time, I'd say that it's total bullshit.

It just shows that he doesn't love you enough anymore. If he really loves you, he would try all means to be together with you all the time and not even thinking about leaving you. Not even stop talking or contacting you, even if it's for awhile. Don't even think that not contacting you for 1 day is alright. It's not.

"Maybe it's because he....", "or maybe because he's just...."

Stop giving yourself excuses. Just accept the fact that he's just not that into you anymore.